i say.

i am going out with Mr M, and i enjoy doing so.

sambal stingray.

mr goh, dinner was great, especially the moment when i heard the price.
hahaha.

i want to eat stingray again.
this time, you cook.

be patient.
im thankful.

will you,

be mine?

sebastian

as requested, this is SEBASTIAN my buddy. heheheh
eh buddy! you're my best best best buddy ok! so nice of you, sick also share your flu bug with me.

heheheheh.

and i love you, cause you're always there whenever i need someone,

i'll help you to find a princess real soon =)

bracelet.

someone helped me unbuckle my bracelet today.

sound.

thank you for being nice,












thank you for being mine.

polite ant.

this is part of a conversation i just had with marcus..

polka dots cookie jar, says:
an ant just walk across my screen like nobody's business -.-'''
Marcus says:
hahaha
would you like it to walk across and say excuse me?
HAHAHAHAHA
polka dots cookie jar. says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
Marcus says:
or looking very flustered.



nearly fainted.

cookie jar.

i was googling for cookie jar.
apparently i didnt get any.

and i got laughed at.
i wanna smack marcus on his square ass.



i think im growing up.

am i not? =)

我想这该是画上句号的时间了。

will you?

....

havent felt like it for such a long time.

given the choice, i will make the same mistakes again.

there! i've said it,

thank you for everything.


soon,
very soon i'll wake up from this nightmare,
and find my fairy tale.

misjudgement.

i thought you love me.













if u care enough, u would have bothered to come see me.
you dont even talk.

i woke this morning with a total different perspective of life,
grabbed my mobile,
there'a still nothing for me.

There and then, i dropped back into a pool of wonder.
I'll wait.

you'd seriously got me thinking about many things,
got to thank you for that.
how about you?
i guess we have no idea what each other are thinking, even if we do, we might not be right about it.

im sorry.
for how things have gone,
for how i react to things,
and how i faced you.

we lack communication,
and i guess i've done my part.
we all know if two person do not communicate well,
thats what exactly's gonna happen.

right?

if you find me too complainy,
yes i am.
if u find me irritating,
yes i am.

there are times when i look at you,
i just feel that i can stay at that manner forever you know?

but when we fight,
it just seem like forever before we'll smile again.
really hurting.

i have to get it out of my system, so that i can feel better.
would you please stop ignoring me?

what am i waiting for?

i think im stuck. like how one falls into quicksand.
you'd gotta get out fast, but the harder you try, the deeper you'll get sucked into.

i dont exactly know how to go about doing it.
i dont even feel like moving on.
its like, u get episode after episode of it.
they all seem so alike to you,
u make same mistakes, u fight over the same stuff,
you get hurt- the same way.

eventually, u will want to move on to something else.

im looking forward to a future thats more different, and meaningful.

anybody get me?

im so glad to have u guys here with me.
pick up my calls to hear me weep,
cheer me up with your antics,
and love me, like how u love a child.

im so thankful to my gfs, my gd friends, and to you.
hahaha.

there to see me cry, there to help me fly.
what am i supposed to do without u guys?

i know im a brat =)
thanks for being there, to remind me that i need to be a good friend too.
to find more meaning in life, to enjoy the right way.

i've always liked this.


张韶涵
遗失的美好

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天 在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞 盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了
承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞 盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒 有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑 真心会和真心遇到
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

阴天

阴天在不开灯的房间

当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀

爱情究竟是精神鸦片

还是世纪末的无聊消遣


香烟氤成一滩光圈

和他的照片就摆在手边

傻傻两个人笑得多甜
------------


开始总是分分钟都妙不可言

谁都以为热情它永不会减

除了激情褪去后的那一点点倦


也许像谁说过的贪得无厌

活该应了谁说过的不知检点

总之那几年感性赢了理性那一面


阴天在不开灯的房间

当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀

爱恨情欲里的疑点

盲点呼之欲出那么明显


女孩通通让到一边

这歌里的细微末节就算都体验

若想真明白真要好几年


回想那一天喧闹的喜宴

耳边响起的究竟是序曲或完结篇

感情不就是你情我愿

最好爱恨扯平两不相欠

感情说穿了一人挣脱的一人去捡


男人大可不必百口莫辩

女人实在无须楚楚可怜

总之那几年你们两个没有缘




傻傻两个人笑得多甜

like the ladder..

growing up's

Just like climbing the ladder.

every little step matters,

if u miss the step right ahead, you'd be standing still.

guess im a late bloomer, my inconsistency, inexperiences-

that explains my unstableness, and falls.

THERE! i'll move on, and be strong.

today.

SINCE I KNOW YOU'D BE READING THIS....

you deserve champion trophy for taking 40 mins to reach jalan kayu fron yishun.

=D

hahaha. bet you're puffing mad like...

THIS!

ANYWAY, thanks for the bomb and teh tarik.

we'll go out again =)

i overlooked on the part whereby how i made u feel the way i put my msgs across to you.

its something i've lost the ability to do.
and i accept it as my fault.

i've hurt u.

my stand remains.
i suppose you're right, i should just go find somebody else.

what we have here, its something never-to be.

im hurt here myself.
and i feel that i've done much more wrong than u.

all u have is a busy life.




the girl in my mirror.
im trying to help her right now.

yes im being unreasonable right at this moment so what?!

so im sorry for this stupid pissy moment can?
can anot?
this is so not me.

i put in patience and understanding.
when u are busy,
schooling,
working,
sleeping,
out having fun with your friends.

and while all this are happening,
you dont contact me.

YOU FREAKING dont.
u only remember me when u have nothing else to be busy with.

that is what i mean by me not being acknowledged for putting in effort.
yes. you're angry too.
allowed to be sacarstic.

im damned if im going to contact u on my own again.
next time you tell me i dont have to settle for less,
the next time u tell me that again,
i'll just heed your bloody advice.

i just cant be somebody's gf who doesnt talk to her on the phone at all.
who text her every 12 hours, and at the hour she cant reply.

talk about insufficient communication.

speech

Its been quite awhile since I've last blogged,
and thru this AWHILE so many things have actually happened and not happen..

Like how I've finally withdrew from school.
this thing has finally sunk into my head, leavig good friends, nice buddies,
and i guess its time to start everything anew once more.

I've more than half a year before my new school starts, its alot of time..
far too much of time for my own good.

I've also been spending quite an amount of time going out with xuan, steph, shing..
but sadly not adam =/
he's so busy, and im so broke! (blame gss)

anyway.. its not a bad thing afterall..
im still looking for job, the job agency have promised a job like last week.
its like this week already, and i still haven heard from them yet.
LIARS. hehe.

i need to start working out again..
leaving MI also means no more of those neckbreaking-muscle-tearing pe sessions.
*ohmygawdhowimgonna missit* get my enthusiasms?
hahah.

there's like so much so much i wanna do,
but there are always something to stop me,
like finanicial limitation, circumstances that's stopping me from gettin what i really really want.

i guess its a very normal thing to face in life,
but doesnt anyone get fed up of this kinda of limitations?

this are man-made obstacles.
you see.
if one cant give-birth,
its a natural things, a natural disadvantage.
but being held back, like holding back the urge to go sky diving,
due to the financial limitation, is really..

stupid.

I really wouldnt let this sort of matter stop me from getting what i want.

Is this what life is about?
I guess its roughly about there isnt it?

You try to get on with life, or maybe try to live better..
inevitably problems get into your face,
then u go either way, the long or short way.

Long way- u screw it up, get yourself more problems to solve,
if you're smart and strong enought to withstand these shit, u become a hero of your own life,
if not, you're dead.

Short way- u figure out a solution to your initial problem and u slove it.

Through your journey, u receive help (like it or not)
here, u get friends, friends who are willing to help u stand,
or pretend to help u by pushing you harder and make u fall on your face. (u were sitting)

You learn about true friends.
therefore, life goes on, 'cos problems goes on too.

I guess, one doesnt have the choice to give up.
becos if one does, one's dead (literally and physically).

There, I've just figured out life.
that doesnt mean i wont fall again,
becos there's no answer sheet to life.

if.
if its true- its goldpithole.
and its really true. no shit abt it.

atrocious

the amount of trust u have in me is so assuring.
im not the one neglecting the important one.
you are.