understand me.

hello..
im munching on FAMOUS AMOS cookies right now... they are soooooo... delicious!
ok, its like 0006 am right now, and instead of going to bed, i am sitting right in front of my lappie, blogging..
i am not sure why too.. hahah

i went out today with him,
we went to vivo, had his stuff changed, and walked around window shopping.. i havent really felt this happy for quite sometime.. i had always thought that i was happy, but maybe because i often just made do with whatever, regardless how little, was given to me and be happy.

i find it hard to seek an understanding from some of my friends.

is it wrong for me to go out with somebody else after breaking off from a relatioship?

i mean, havent i been a dutiful and responsible girlfriend all these while?
i think i have been. so what exactly am i suppose to do, sit at home and cry/brood all day long?
i mean, i have a future and life to go on and move forward too, we have our own differences and difficulties, thats why we broke up.

i really really hope that my life decisions or actions will not be scrutinized so unfairly, because i have put in my best and the decision to give up really took me alot of courage.

ok. thats all for that.

next sunday's audrey's wedding, i've promised to be her sister and im looking forward to it.
evening there will be a dinner at safra and the cine clique will all be seated around the same table. i'm just worried that things will be awkward.

why does somethings have to b so difficult i wonder?
oh well. worrying does not help at all.

this week's gonna be another week of nothing but sample lecture.
why do we need to attend so many sample lectures?
i really really really wish that lessons would start quickly so that we have something really constructive to do- though i am super sure that i'm going to regret having said this now when i have a load of work to do. haha.
there might be another netball selection tomorrow after school but i don have any information about it. i am actually quite worried as i have heard wuite a few nasty remarks about netball and i am really having second thoughts about joining it.

my monsterous appetite is back and im hungry again!!
tata~ im going to have my supper and turning in soon...

how long more have i got to wait?