shitload

got way too drunk last night,
till a point i couldnt stop throwing up.
like omfg.

darn the raw whiskey that i had downed without thinking.

wouldnt call it a mistake, neither am i proud of it,
i am sure guilty, extremely indeed,.
what am i suppose to do i wonder,
and wondering doesnt help at all if you hit a dead end.

i didnt stop it.
i did twice,
but without success.
have i encouraged it? maybe.

i know im wrong.
darn darn wrong.
what is done is done.
face the music i will sooner or later,
i hope to receive forgiveness,
i didnt had the intention for it to happen,
i wish it didnt happen.
wrong time wrong place wrong thing to happen.

circumstances were bad, factors that lead to it,
i know things are not favorable in my stand.

im sorry. i really am.
im working on the courage to fix it right again.
please, forgive me.
please believe me.