-confusion-

I feel so uneasy, you'll be going on sunday. I really really want to go, but I cant.
Im not really sure if i shld be relieved or frustrated, I really dunno.
What would u see from the comparision between the two of us? but I know, and Im damn sure that I must meet and face her myself to overcome this awful feeling.

I know,and I can see that she's not just a friend to you.
what am I suppose to do?
maybe I shldnt do anything bout it cos its not like its causing problem?
but im really not comfortable with it.
probably just towards her.

You once said -"you're gonna grow up to be just like her", in a manner a of complimenting me.

I mean its like, you think that ITS a compliment to me. Then, well it apparently means that you know, she is just the type of girl you want you, then who am i exactly?
I am me.
I am not going to grow up and be like Iris. You date me, but not the girl-that-is-the-same-as-iris.
Ever since the day she popped into yr life, you have made alot of remarks of her to me such as:

1. she's very pretty
2.she's a model
3.she is mature ,good character-ed etc etc.

and I heard our friend who doesnt know her talk abt her latest status- SHE'S SINGLE.
you know, i don like it, not the tiniest bit, what are you?
Her fan?
Gotta go round telling ppl she's a pretty model, damn hot, recently or rather just broke up with her boyfriend laast week?

I'VE GOT FEELINGS TOO.

If she means that much to you, then there's not much point of being with me, is there?
I know you would be after her if it wasnt me. If only Im gone.

It used to be Peiyu, you defended her all the way, even when i was the one being upset, BECAUSE she didnt like me and treated me in a silent but despise manner.
It really isnt my fault that she doesnt like me for whatever apparent reasons, or im just too young for you. i am yr girlfriend you know?
I could stil remember the day you were going to watch movie with her.
we had a fight right before the movie, and you just left me behind and went in to the theater with her. I didnt even know.
I was so upset, and I told you I'll just wait for you guys to finish watching.
you said okay.
So when u came out after two hours, you told me she wanted to smoke, so I waited.
Then you msg me just to tell me you're accompanying to eat cos she's hungry, and so I waited.

It didnt occur to you that while you two were joking, laughing away, i was just sitting outside the building you two were in, all alone for almost 4 hours?
You didnt ask me if i was hungry, if i wanted to join you guys to eat?

And now its her.
Haix. i just saw her photo among some stuff that you dont want me to see.