big problem

WANT TO LOOK IS IT? LOOK LOR!

guess

kinda of expected it- u know?
well at least i dint make a fuss out of it though i really felt like it.
i don like to accept the reality of it.never mind.
im just freaking disappointed.
counting/counted down for nothing.

today i went to do photoshooting wit x.t. and FOUR photographers.
guess how freaked out i was though i dint show it on my- im learning not to let my face be an open book of emotions anymore.
ha but they were four really friendly photographers and that really helped alot.
well..
they kept making comments about how BLACK i look
and how FAIR x.t looked.

so my conclusion was:
i look like some black woman from africa and x.t. looks like a china woman- from?
china la. of course.
but she kept inisting that she's frm japan.
-not a china woman from japan but a japanese woman from japan.
okay.enough of racist comment.

im so freakin bored here(im working)
and im falling asleep.
so much on my mind now im so stress
_AND NO BODY CAN UNDERSTAND_
okay.
done.
guess

i really dont know how.

looking at yr post really makes me speechless.
there are somethings that really need us to sort out.