summer and a kiss

the shift. the end.

2009-12-17T02:02:00.001+08:00

www.redbooties.blogspot.com

HI all, i've moved.

this blog will remain, as my memory and as my living proof of what i have and gone through.

what will come eventually will definitely be better.

move

2009-11-30T00:40:00.002+08:00

We've moved.

2009-11-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

the chocolate fudge muffin with pink icing.

you're so pretty in my eyes, becos of who you are.

its just so.. surreal?

soon i'll stop asking - " you really do like me?"

becos im starting to believe.

to you, its a dream.

to me, its an unbeliveable fantasy.

glee.

2009-11-20T18:07:00.001+08:00

i need someone to hold on to.

the last word

2009-11-19T03:05:00.001+08:00

i have enough of it.

that's my last word.

im happy

2009-11-09T00:15:00.003+08:00

oh yeah..

new red laptop,

red walls,

floor rugs,

pretty comfy squishy quilt,

new room arrangements,

relaxing sentosa trip

wonderful stay-overs,

new job,

great books,

cool speakers,

and plenty of dreams.

and he's always there for me, with my best best gfs-

what can be better than this?

2009-09-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

independence is when you know the time to rely on someone else.

pain

2009-09-16T00:46:00.000+08:00

sometimes its just so difficult to breathe.

im starting to see the different shades of life right now.

the kind you experience when you feel all grey out,

the kind that shocks you when the brightness blinds you.

and the piercing redness of pain you feel when u get hurt feeling all hurt and devastated.

and you cant make it out if its the thin strand of hope you are hanging on by the sense of helplessness,

or if you are just falling through the darkess.

when you are young,

you just wanna grow up quickly.

to learn to understand things that you didnt understand,

to know things that you didnt know,

to do things that you werent allowed to do,

and to be responsible of yourself.

now that you have grown up,

you just wish that you were that young,

dont why to understand why things are the way they are.

to know about some things that you wish they werent,

to do things that you dread to do,

and to be totally responsible of yourself.

the world is cruel and cold.

hey you.

2009-09-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

sing me a love song.

slow slow move

2009-09-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

been working everyday..

even right now.
no sales call. but im feeling so damn lethargic!

ending work soon, meeting irving!
his celebration's at east coast, but he'll come and pick me up first he says,

so nice of him =)

steph and danial will go too.

i really hope shing and darren will go. ** hint hint hint**

tired tired.

tonight's gonna be so fun, we're going somehwere aint we? *wink wink*
gonna have much more time then =)

it'll never.

2009-08-28T00:52:00.001+08:00

simple as that.

2009-08-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

would you have thought it would be like this?
would you have picture today this way?
would you still say yes?

would you?

heartfelt song.

2009-08-24T14:47:00.001+08:00

secretly i longed for the kind of passion i see two loving ones hold together.

i wish i wish and i wish, the kind of feeling i had onced submerged in will return.

wishes never come true,

do they?

precisely a choice.

2009-08-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

i get irritated when it happens again.

i didnt know you're like this-

or rather i wouldnt picture you like that.

you're smart, but your EQ's rather low. it might sound mean, but i really think it that way.

you call and call, to no avail, but you still call.

you text like you're no man, i dont want to hurt you.

but sometimes to maintain my sanity i have no choice but to make things crystal clear.

never have i thought you're so clingy and frustrating.

i dont pick up- you call.

i dont reply- you text.

i delete you- you add me.

right now you're still calling. very very irritating.

we're quits, you know?

echo

2009-08-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

It gets so empty sometimes,

that you can even hear echo when there's a hair line crack.

so empty hearted right now.

2009-08-20T00:01:00.000+08:00

sometimes, when the sky looks like it'll never ever light up again,
remember to stop, and think about how to hide from the rain.
becos after the rain, the rainbow will be out again.

im sorry, for all that i have failed to accomplish,
for all that mistakes i made,
and all the chances i've missed.

the kind of love i require.
its exquistive.

2009-08-16T13:27:00.000+08:00

we all have a long long way to move on.

SCARY. woo~

2009-08-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

noisy little...

2009-08-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

SO NOISY,
here's the blog post you want:
thank you for the food that you have been feeding me the past few days,
i am very sure that with your constant assisstance in helping me gain weight,
the tendency of me running away is really low- as i am going to be so so fat.

hahaha, and so much for sleeping at 12.
lets earn alot of moolah together and elope to somewhere, where ppl are less nasty,
and food is 50% discount everywhere, fat people are beautiful and highly sought after.

my infection's killing me.
somebody help me!!!

and there, you're talking to your mama right now while i am typing everything here.
so now you've got spongebob to play with, cuter than me uh?
fine.
goodnight. =)

my saturday

2009-08-09T09:16:00.000+08:00

happy birthday singapore!

you're like what, 44 this year?

so old.hahaha

replaced my ez link card yesterday~ woo.

at least now i have some proper form of identification when i go out.

and i dont have to pay so much for travelling. NO MORE WALKING ERP.

went to register at SIM yesterday.

i gave them my really old secondary school photos.

the ones my face's round like the moon, so are the specs on my face- the frame's round.

and my hair's all tied up, even from the front.

hahaha.

my SIM card's sure gonna screw.

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you have big big questions in your head?

like what?

like why am i happy now, why am i happy with somebody else right now?

is it because you think it wrong to be happy?

you tell me to go.

from that point of time onwards,

you cant tell me which way to go.

dont spoil it.

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AND there,

im happy with marcus.

i'll be less grouchy in the morning- i promise.

piece by piece, patch by patch.

2009-08-08T01:39:00.000+08:00

working has been tedious and horrendous.

hours and hours of theory,
staring at the blinking screen filled with thousands of alphabets.
you go click click click, and more click click clicks.

I spent all my time trying to understand those stuff,
end up i only get an idea about half of it.

all those technical terms,
for someone like me-
dont even know how to use my own wireless,
i have to learn about modems- cable services.

hahaha.

im so appalled myself.

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I've got to get some stuff done tml, or rather later.
gotta go apply for school,
try to replace my student pass.

ADULT fare's horrible,
ten times worst than ERP.
i think i've spent half my allowance on topping up the damn card-
within a damn week.

cant help it, i had to lose my wallet twice,
within a week.
RECORD AH.

I've been lazy, too complacent with my over flowing freedom.
i'll get back on track soon.
im busy earning moolah,
and moolahs dont grow on trees.

Things that I need to do that have taken years

paint my room-
but first must buy the paint-
retain some moolah in my vault-
remove the moutain of books and make it look civillised-
return fadzli his things-
return shiying her things-
find a suitable study table-
find a suitable shelf-
do manicure-
meet up with melissa-

looks like the list's gonna get longer- and definitely older.
im gonna find more beautiful photos.

summer and a kiss

2009-08-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

i turned around, wanting to give
him a hug.
he saw me coming, he turned
around too, and ran away..

i am.

2009-08-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

i found someone special.
and i guess, you'd want me to move on, and be happy.
and hey, i am.

i really am.
and i hope you would be too.

august.

2009-08-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

I thought long and hard, and so i made up my mind.
I gave myself a new set of rules for myself to follow today,
new plans and goals.

gotta pull up my socks on fixing up my life..
felt like i've really "nua-ed" for a long long time- ever since i stopped schooling.

i got up early this morning, returned my books- that are overdue-ed,
went to the bank, the queue was like so so super long, queued all the way outside of the bank.

replaced my atm card, and other important stuff, the lady was so nice to waived off my replacement fee cause i told her i lost my wallet and so all forms of identifications ( i brought my passport instead).

went to meet Mr M, and went shopping for birthday present for Ms M,- which ended up to be a whole set of yellow ducks, and i got a present for baby hayden's full month tml.

movie- THE HANGOVER was funny, really really hilarious! good movie to catch when you're feeling down, even nicer to watch when you're not down.hahaha.
had supper at the ritz apple place. i think i can swallow up the whole shop.
so nice la, next time dont need to buy birthday cake, just buy the apple strudal thing.

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Its the 1st day of August today.
i hope i did right, i hope i did fine.
it wasnt as sincere or as good as what you did,
but it came out naturally, from the bottom of my heart.
i hope my ears didnt go pink,
and i wish everything will stay warm, and fine.

Needa catch up with myself.
seriously lack of understanding.

2 different things.

2009-08-01T09:53:00.000+08:00

whats the difference between love, and like?

i say.

2009-07-30T21:37:00.000+08:00

i am going out with Mr M, and i enjoy doing so.

sambal stingray.

2009-07-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

mr goh, dinner was great, especially the moment when i heard the price.
hahaha.

i want to eat stingray again.
this time, you cook.

be patient.
im thankful.

will you,

2009-07-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

be mine?

sebastian

2009-07-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

as requested, this is SEBASTIAN my buddy. heheheh
eh buddy! you're my best best best buddy ok! so nice of you, sick also share your flu bug with me.

heheheheh.

and i love you, cause you're always there whenever i need someone,

i'll help you to find a princess real soon =)

bracelet.

2009-07-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

someone helped me unbuckle my bracelet today.

sound.

2009-07-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

thank you for being nice,

thank you for being mine.

polite ant.

2009-07-20T04:34:00.000+08:00

this is part of a conversation i just had with marcus..

polka dots cookie jar, says:
an ant just walk across my screen like nobody's business -.-'''
Marcus says:
hahaha
would you like it to walk across and say excuse me?
HAHAHAHAHA
polka dots cookie jar. says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
Marcus says:
or looking very flustered.

nearly fainted.

cookie jar.

2009-07-20T02:54:00.000+08:00

i was googling for cookie jar.
apparently i didnt get any.

and i got laughed at.
i wanna smack marcus on his square ass.

i think im growing up.

am i not? =)

2009-07-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

我想这该是画上句号的时间了。

2009-07-19T11:22:00.000+08:00

will you?

....

2009-07-17T17:09:00.000+08:00

havent felt like it for such a long time.

given the choice, i will make the same mistakes again.

there! i've said it,

thank you for everything.

soon,
very soon i'll wake up from this nightmare,
and find my fairy tale.

misjudgement.

2009-07-17T12:55:00.000+08:00

i thought you love me.

if u care enough, u would have bothered to come see me.
you dont even talk.

2009-07-16T10:36:00.000+08:00

i woke this morning with a total different perspective of life,
grabbed my mobile,
there'a still nothing for me.

There and then, i dropped back into a pool of wonder.
I'll wait.

you'd seriously got me thinking about many things,
got to thank you for that.
how about you?
i guess we have no idea what each other are thinking, even if we do, we might not be right about it.

im sorry.
for how things have gone,
for how i react to things,
and how i faced you.

we lack communication,
and i guess i've done my part.
we all know if two person do not communicate well,
thats what exactly's gonna happen.

right?

if you find me too complainy,
yes i am.
if u find me irritating,
yes i am.

there are times when i look at you,
i just feel that i can stay at that manner forever you know?

but when we fight,
it just seem like forever before we'll smile again.
really hurting.

i have to get it out of my system, so that i can feel better.
would you please stop ignoring me?

2009-07-16T10:21:00.000+08:00

what am i waiting for?

2009-07-16T02:54:00.000+08:00

i think im stuck. like how one falls into quicksand.
you'd gotta get out fast, but the harder you try, the deeper you'll get sucked into.

i dont exactly know how to go about doing it.
i dont even feel like moving on.
its like, u get episode after episode of it.
they all seem so alike to you,
u make same mistakes, u fight over the same stuff,
you get hurt- the same way.

eventually, u will want to move on to something else.

im looking forward to a future thats more different, and meaningful.

anybody get me?

im so glad to have u guys here with me.
pick up my calls to hear me weep,
cheer me up with your antics,
and love me, like how u love a child.

im so thankful to my gfs, my gd friends, and to you.
hahaha.

there to see me cry, there to help me fly.
what am i supposed to do without u guys?

i know im a brat =)
thanks for being there, to remind me that i need to be a good friend too.
to find more meaning in life, to enjoy the right way.

2009-07-15T17:14:00.000+08:00

i've always liked this.

张韶涵
遗失的美好

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了
承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

阴天

2009-07-15T16:09:00.000+08:00

阴天在不开灯的房间

当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀

爱情究竟是精神鸦片

还是世纪末的无聊消遣

香烟氤成一滩光圈

和他的照片就摆在手边

傻傻两个人笑得多甜
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开始总是分分钟都妙不可言

谁都以为热情它永不会减

除了激情褪去后的那一点点倦

也许像谁说过的贪得无厌

活该应了谁说过的不知检点

总之那几年感性赢了理性那一面

阴天在不开灯的房间

当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀

爱恨情欲里的疑点

盲点呼之欲出那么明显

女孩通通让到一边

这歌里的细微末节就算都体验

若想真明白真要好几年

回想那一天喧闹的喜宴

耳边响起的究竟是序曲或完结篇

感情不就是你情我愿

最好爱恨扯平两不相欠

感情说穿了一人挣脱的一人去捡

男人大可不必百口莫辩

女人实在无须楚楚可怜

总之那几年你们两个没有缘

傻傻两个人笑得多甜

like the ladder..

2009-07-10T03:55:00.000+08:00

growing up's

Just like climbing the ladder.

every little step matters,

if u miss the step right ahead, you'd be standing still.

guess im a late bloomer, my inconsistency, inexperiences-

that explains my unstableness, and falls.

THERE! i'll move on, and be strong.

today.

2009-07-10T03:29:00.000+08:00

SINCE I KNOW YOU'D BE READING THIS....

you deserve champion trophy for taking 40 mins to reach jalan kayu fron yishun.

hahaha. bet you're puffing mad like...

THIS!

ANYWAY, thanks for the bomb and teh tarik.

we'll go out again =)

2009-07-09T13:27:00.000+08:00

i overlooked on the part whereby how i made u feel the way i put my msgs across to you.

its something i've lost the ability to do.
and i accept it as my fault.

i've hurt u.

my stand remains.
i suppose you're right, i should just go find somebody else.

what we have here, its something never-to be.

im hurt here myself.
and i feel that i've done much more wrong than u.

all u have is a busy life.

the girl in my mirror.
im trying to help her right now.

2009-07-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

yes im being unreasonable right at this moment so what?!

so im sorry for this stupid pissy moment can?
can anot?
this is so not me.

i put in patience and understanding.
when u are busy,
schooling,
working,
sleeping,
out having fun with your friends.

and while all this are happening,
you dont contact me.

YOU FREAKING dont.
u only remember me when u have nothing else to be busy with.

that is what i mean by me not being acknowledged for putting in effort.
yes. you're angry too.
allowed to be sacarstic.

im damned if im going to contact u on my own again.
next time you tell me i dont have to settle for less,
the next time u tell me that again,
i'll just heed your bloody advice.

i just cant be somebody's gf who doesnt talk to her on the phone at all.
who text her every 12 hours, and at the hour she cant reply.

talk about insufficient communication.

speech

2009-07-07T05:28:00.000+08:00

Its been quite awhile since I've last blogged,
and thru this AWHILE so many things have actually happened and not happen..

Like how I've finally withdrew from school.
this thing has finally sunk into my head, leavig good friends, nice buddies,
and i guess its time to start everything anew once more.

I've more than half a year before my new school starts, its alot of time..
far too much of time for my own good.

I've also been spending quite an amount of time going out with xuan, steph, shing..
but sadly not adam =/
he's so busy, and im so broke! (blame gss)

anyway.. its not a bad thing afterall..
im still looking for job, the job agency have promised a job like last week.
its like this week already, and i still haven heard from them yet.
LIARS. hehe.

i need to start working out again..
leaving MI also means no more of those neckbreaking-muscle-tearing pe sessions.
*ohmygawdhowimgonna missit* get my enthusiasms?
hahah.

there's like so much so much i wanna do,
but there are always something to stop me,
like finanicial limitation, circumstances that's stopping me from gettin what i really really want.

i guess its a very normal thing to face in life,
but doesnt anyone get fed up of this kinda of limitations?

this are man-made obstacles.
you see.
if one cant give-birth,
its a natural things, a natural disadvantage.
but being held back, like holding back the urge to go sky diving,
due to the financial limitation, is really..

stupid.

I really wouldnt let this sort of matter stop me from getting what i want.

Is this what life is about?
I guess its roughly about there isnt it?

You try to get on with life, or maybe try to live better..
inevitably problems get into your face,
then u go either way, the long or short way.

Long way- u screw it up, get yourself more problems to solve,
if you're smart and strong enought to withstand these shit, u become a hero of your own life,
if not, you're dead.

Short way- u figure out a solution to your initial problem and u slove it.

Through your journey, u receive help (like it or not)
here, u get friends, friends who are willing to help u stand,
or pretend to help u by pushing you harder and make u fall on your face. (u were sitting)

You learn about true friends.
therefore, life goes on, 'cos problems goes on too.

I guess, one doesnt have the choice to give up.
becos if one does, one's dead (literally and physically).

There, I've just figured out life.
that doesnt mean i wont fall again,
becos there's no answer sheet to life.

2009-07-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

if.
if its true- its goldpithole.
and its really true. no shit abt it.

atrocious

2009-07-01T16:47:00.000+08:00

the amount of trust u have in me is so assuring.
im not the one neglecting the important one.
you are.

2009-06-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

are my expectations too high or am i just not up to yours?

stone weight.

2009-06-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

i feel squashed,
and trapped.

a load forcing its weight down on me.

2009-06-17T07:07:00.000+08:00

I'm brooding.
still.
two more weeks to go on,

the feeling's so..argh.

there's so much i wanna say,
but i cant..yet.
it feels so awful thinking about it.
sigh.
trapped.

here's something for us to reminisce:

ms gabriela- mdm romanian hehe=)

josh- my dearest og buddy! he doesnt look anything like willy wonka know!

popeys trip.

pics

2009-06-17T06:52:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my.
sun's waking up, and im still bright bright awake and..

yawning away.

anyway.. the gals -steph,xuan,shing-
came over my place the night before last.
haven gotten the pictures from shing yet.
so cant upload.
i tell you.its like WHOA. fun.
hehe =)
i love the part where steph showed off her indian dance.
hilarious. hehehe

couldnt sleep.
so spent the whole entire night organising the photos in my com..
came up with this..

SO NICE RIGHT!
haha.
i think nice can already.. lol

anyway..
i wanna say something to this person here:

im really sorry about last night.
temper took over me.
i guess i understand what you said to me,
and please please don take what happened to heart ok?
im greatful to have you and your patience.
hope you'll let it go.
im sorry.

2009-06-13T02:38:00.000+08:00

thank you for your understanding..
thank you for listening.
thank you for trying so hard.

so stubborn.
im relieved that i tried.

like a shadow,
your love never leaves.

forseen

2009-06-12T14:26:00.000+08:00

i've finally come to terms with myself.
and think about all that you have said to me..
think i know what's your concern,
and why you are doing things this way.
but i really dont think its a good idea.
honestly.

i want the best for the two of us.
i really really do.
and i can honestly say that i am not in any manner angry/upset with you.
i don have anything to complain abt too.
all except the fact that you wouldnt let us do it togehter,
thats all.

im putting in for our last mile.
i hope, it doesnt end.

imagine

2009-06-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

a promise to me
to make it up to me during the holidays.

how it went.
i don even hear from you.

did i even pop up in yr head today-
i really wonder.

you have no idea how badly it's hurting me.
thinking you're just there, not thinking abt me at all.

i realise u were there,
not picking up,
not replying,
not busy,
not bothering at all.

wait

2009-06-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

3rd day after it.
3 whole miserable days for my pumping heart.

doesnt seem like you say.
doesnt feel like u painted.
still waiting.
still hurting.

feels like you're punishing me
for something that i really don know.

only comfort-
it hurts a wee bit lesser than yesterday for tommorow.

i really miss you.
u make me think that there's someone else.

2009-06-09T04:40:00.000+08:00

who hears me.
my heart's wailing, screaming away.
inside my head, my visions twirling and twirling.
outside my lids,
its raining cats and dogs.

2009-06-09T04:11:00.000+08:00

while you were telling me,
i only saw your face lit up with amazement,
sitting in yr room,
holding yr fone,
with a msg from me,
on the 21st of march evening.

and i thought,
omg.

please dont go.

last word

2009-06-09T04:04:00.000+08:00

shut them tightly,
down it came.

head up high,
down it rolled.

palms over it,
how it leaks.

somebody please,
help me with those tears.

suppose

2009-06-09T04:01:00.000+08:00

suppose this pain would nv surface again
becos the guardian angel was there.

the guardian angel said " suppose the pain nv surfave again, would you cherish?"
so the guardian angel left.

suppose the pain came back,
it was already too late to salvage.

2009-06-09T03:59:00.000+08:00

you learn to cherish, only after its gone.

shitload

2009-06-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

got way too drunk last night,
till a point i couldnt stop throwing up.
like omfg.

darn the raw whiskey that i had downed without thinking.

wouldnt call it a mistake, neither am i proud of it,
i am sure guilty, extremely indeed,.
what am i suppose to do i wonder,
and wondering doesnt help at all if you hit a dead end.

i didnt stop it.
i did twice,
but without success.
have i encouraged it? maybe.

i know im wrong.
darn darn wrong.
what is done is done.
face the music i will sooner or later,
i hope to receive forgiveness,
i didnt had the intention for it to happen,
i wish it didnt happen.
wrong time wrong place wrong thing to happen.

circumstances were bad, factors that lead to it,
i know things are not favorable in my stand.

im sorry. i really am.
im working on the courage to fix it right again.
please, forgive me.
please believe me.

traffic junction

2009-06-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

it comes to a point you have to stop- like it or not.
you stop to wait,and think,rethink, and decide.
you make good and bad choices.
you're responsible.

life's so difficult.
and easy.
i would do anything to make this route smoother,
i can also leave it as it is,
seems both requires suffering.

why do we choose to fall into, when we know we'll fall out of love?
why do we fight, when we know we're gonna regret?
why do we complain when we know that nothing can be done abt it?

we are so weird.
we hate and love at the same time.
we push in hope to get nearer.

i cry, because it hurts.
pls forgive me.
im a human too.
its difficult being one,
even more to be a good one.

2009-06-03T13:05:00.000+08:00

something in me opened up today.

its really alright to fall, and break,
just take some time to stand up again.

i wont use up too much of me once more,
and i wont be pushed down again.

there's so much more out for waiting,
i wont miss the sunrise,
like i once did again.

wired

2009-06-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

i feel all wired up.
something's not right.
and the biggest problem?
i have no idea what's wrong..at all.

i can make history

2009-05-29T16:41:00.000+08:00

i can be a scientist i think.

my instincts are so accurate, my power's so great,
i cleared away all my music files in my laptop,
i cleared away almost all the photos in my fone,
i found my 30-buck carnival tickets one week after the carnival has ended,
i lost 4 erasers within a month,
i fell down just now.

i believe i can make history soon.
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=---=-=-=-=--=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=
anyhoo, i've been spending my time so meaningfully these two days.
half a day was used on lying on my bed yesterday..
then i went out for dinner and movie looking like an auntie in the evening.

i went hme and started watching videos, till 6 am this morning!
hehe.
then i woke up at 2 pm.
play game until 4 pm.
cook noodle and sit down here to show off my achievement!

im so lucky. HOLS' HERRRRRRRE!

silence.

2009-05-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

will anyone notice when i shut myself out of the this hot noisy world?

2009-05-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

THE night's still, so's my mobile.
suppose to study,
ended up didnt write a word.

im so so bored,
i wanna go out.
but im broke.
still gotta save,
all for the sake of my own enterprise.
lol.

Where you'd go..
i miss you so...

hectic

2009-05-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

get out of bed.
go to school.
work like mad.
go home.
sleep.
get out of bed...

i think im going crazy.

i've got inspirations... (=

sunday

2009-05-10T10:24:00.000+08:00

i dreamt about you last night, prolly when you're serving some hot lady who looks at you like a little kid staring at a huge lump of chocolate ice cream with some fancy cocktail~ hahah.
im not going to tell you what it is about. (=
just got up, whole body achin. so glad im going to have my day with you today... YEAH!!!
seems like the last we spent a long day together was like.....
when the dodo bird learned how to walk,
imhappy~

2009-05-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

take a step back,

and look.

photos

2009-05-05T13:29:00.000+08:00

pout*pout*pout.

woo~ self-declared holiday today!!

no la...

not that im lazy la. i know what you ppl always think abt me lor..

i was so so so tired last night..

had a vigorous training after school..

ended a lil after seven.

then i went for dinner, and i went straight home.

really really very tired lor. that's why i didnt go school today =)

anyway econ's test postponed...so pictures... OUT!

the day

2009-05-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

the day was fan-tas-tic.......

never had a greater day..

I HAVE THE GREATEST FRIENDS IN THE WHOLE-WIDE-WORLD.

*SMILING LIKE IDIOT*

photos will be up soon..

3 days gone, im still in my birthday mood.

i have the coolest bf ever.

lol.

dinner at swensen's - 16 PEEPS!!

gossiped~

pictures-=)

got drunked. AH-DAM

choc-ed my chest- lamzexuan

got critiscised for wearing too striking red dress =) - dicky,darren,sebas~

cake-ed on my face. AH-DAM

humonguos new best friend- TWEETY- darren & sing

got criticised for wearing too striking red dress- and walking around with a huge chicken wing on my fork -.- HAHAHA. EVERYONE -.-

perfume. yazid & rachel

angbao(S) -Justin, mommy, daddy

funky flowery top- made to wear it over my dress at swensens. zexuan,sebas

-FREAKY EMBARRASSING I TELL YOU. what to do. i have the coolest bff. =)

homemade birthday card. steph & dan

night's stay at this really cool place =) AH-DAM

soft toy with AH-DAM's funny face - chanel & fikri

a wonderful, unforgettable birthday.

with 16 f.riends- including tweety..

so many well wishes..

a whole swelling heart of love.

aint i a lucky girl?

thank you everyone.

i cant express my thankfulness, to have each and everyone of you here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

2009-04-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

YOU HUNG UP ON ME =(

ATTENTION PLEASE.

2009-04-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

ONCE AGAIN.

PLEASE GO TO MY ARCHIVE.
"greedy wish list."

AND POSTS AFTER IT.

i've given some hints **

MAYDAY'S RIGHT AT THE CORRRRRNER....!

2009-04-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

so so glad,
needed you guys.
didnt realize it,
but sometimes thats what friends are for.

thank you so much.
im still thinking abt it.

i've never denied the truth of something so much before.
guess there's always a first time for everything.
not exactly a good thing.

trying to do the right thing,
the best i can.
no excuses,
you're right.

unfair.
cant be more right.

you know i wouldnt do it just to hurt anyone.
i wanna be happy too.
but im just a coward, protect myself,
i knew it was wrong.
still i went ahead with it.

i'll do my best to make it right again.

things are going downturn.
pretty bad time for it though.

self scrutinism

2009-04-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

unfair.

right into vacuum.
twirling in a washing machine.

2009-04-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

i havent seen you smile for almost 3 days already.
i know you're having a pretty bad time now,
i know im not any help to you at all.

im sorry.

please rest well.
and take your time ok?

dont worry about me,
im a big girl already.

greedy wishlist part 2

2009-04-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

i want this two jumpers.

mind you, not the kidsize though.

add it into my birthday list!

2009-04-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

you were. and you are still wrong.
i didnt bounce back at all.
maybe im wrong abt it too.

im still where i was.
waiting for a miracle to happen.

2009-04-20T22:44:00.001+08:00

im moving on.

2009-04-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

im moving on.

2009-04-19T01:45:00.001+08:00

i wish that i can help.

but i can only give u few words of comfort- if thats what it is.

im really really sorry.

and i know its not easy.

but dont worry, really.

he's there, he'll help us.

if there's anyone we can trust & depend on,
its him.

god can do wonders, and will, for us..

2009-04-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

2009-04-17T22:20:00.001+08:00

such a long heavy day it had been..

physics tutorial & assignment, mtl pw, math assignment, econs..
gotta study geo, im like one whole chapter behind?
and i still intend to do my econs chapter layout...
which seems so far away...

im enjoying every minute of it.

school's just started
i guess you need ample time to adapt to it
like i am still trying to adapt to the momentum of school.

feels like you're not really there anymore,
maybe thats how exactly you felt when i started school.

i guess you need time and space.
im just being a baby right?

no hard feelings really.

guess you're out with the boys tonight..
hope that you enjoy yourself,
you've been too busy for them.
...................................................................................................................................................................

im really happy in school.
classmates are like SUPERB =D

school's happening...!

MI MART, CARNIVAL

cant wait....
though all these represents...
work woRK and WORK..

haha.

ps. i wrapped ili's boyfriend up with jocelyn's curtain-wedding-gown.
looks just like a bride's maid =D

2009-04-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

im enjoying every minute of it.

school's just started
i guess you need ample time to adapt to it
like i am still trying to adapt to the momentum of school.

feels like you're not really there anymore,
maybe thats how exactly you felt when i started school.

i guess you need time and space.
im just being a baby right?

no hard feelings really.

im really happy in school.
classmates are like SUPERB =D

school's happening...!

MI MART, CARNIVAL

cant wait....
though all these represents...
work woRK and WORK..

haha.

ps. i wrapped ili's boyfriend up with jocelyn's curtain-wedding-gown.
looks just like a bride's maid =D

2009-04-17T00:05:00.001+08:00

boys, if he can do it, why cant you?

2009-04-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

boys, if he can do it, why cant you?

imagine

2009-04-16T23:55:00.001+08:00

if monkeys were like this, i would have a million of monkeys at home.

now.. who would find being called a monkey an insult?

imagine

2009-04-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

if monkeys were like this, i would have a million of monkeys at home.

now.. who would find being called a monkey an insult?

greedy wishlist.

2009-04-15T23:26:00.001+08:00

i think MAY DAY's coming.
i heard that my birthday's coming soon too...

=)

Dark blue converse high cut sneakers.
-forgiveness.
gladiator-brown.
-understanding.
white lycra tee.
-patience.
Eraser.
-trust.
topman gray shoes.
-sincerity.
wallet.
-haircut.
white skirt.
-care.
watch-thin brown straps,small clock.
-love.
David cook album.
-chance.
flipflops,black.

im a size 5/6 or 35/36,
xs/s, 24/25.

=)

greedy wishlist.

2009-04-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

beep

2009-04-10T01:30:00.001+08:00

phone bill.

CALLING out to you...
im cuter than old women.
remember that..
dont drink so much okay?
bad for health..
im worried that you might fall sick..

hope you're happy, well and safe.
hope you're missing me like hell,
becos i am=)

you're my cutest boy.

beep

2009-04-10T01:30:00.000+08:00

thursday

2009-04-10T01:20:00.001+08:00

so much so much work to do..
GP to restructure, physics to revise, mathe to learn, geo to study..

i've been so exhausted,
TGIF.. especially gd friday.

had an extremely long day.
had lessons, bad pe..
physics test..
and i went out with s6 girls to popeyes!

javier came along too.
im acknowledging his presence as a guy right now.

we had so much fun,
and nonsense.
took lots of photo today.. !!
haha.not like me.
and was extremely high and active.
you can ask any of them.

iTELLyou:

-ILI WAS RAPED BY A TOILET MONSTER.

-my shoe bag was thrown around,
like a ball.

-stephanie's camera can vibrate.

-i look like a cat.

-aisha likes me.

-ya ling's afraid of me, she thinks i like her.

-javier's afraid of girls. [HAR?!]

hee.

YAN, thank you for being there for me today.
you wont know how much it meant to me,
for that round you ran with me.
thank you for being there..
im so glad to have a friend like you.

count on me if you ever need help.

i'll post up the photos after stephanie sends it to me.

omg. im so tired.
going to sleep..

thursday

2009-04-10T01:20:00.000+08:00

bothered

2009-04-01T22:02:00.001+08:00

apple's at work now.
i seem to be easily irritated recently,
no idea why.
im sorry if i'd hurt you or offend you.

i just need more time, and less work.

bothered

2009-04-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

apple's at work now.
i seem to be easily irritated recently,
no idea why.
im sorry if i'd hurt you or offend you.

i just need more time, and less work.

bother

2009-04-01T21:59:00.001+08:00

i just feel bothered.

plenty plenty of school work today. and im so tired,
should i just to to bed,
or bury my head in piles to work?
it wouldnt get me any work done will it?

maybe i should just go sleep.